It's been 8 months since I've seen you

 Every day that passes feels like a loss.  How my heart aches to hold your faces and hear your voices.  Our three minutes on tuesday nights are just a reminder of the distance that has grown between us.  Everyday I have to remind myself that we will be together again, that this is all a big mistake, that you are my children and surely God will bring us back together.  I still don't understand how your dad thinks it's ok to do this, to turn you against me.  It's so wrong.  I pray God will speak to your hearts and make you curious again to know me.  I pray you will miss me and that you won't listen to the lies your dad is telling you.  Please come back to me.  Please desire to be close with me.  I am your mom.  I will never give up hope of our reconciliation.  I will never stop loving you.  I have almost all the money saved up for the psych eval.  I will be able to schedule it next week.  My friend Nancy offered to help me.  She went through a similar situation in Tucson family court many years ago.  She wants me to have this evaluation too so it will be clear that you should be with me.